I'm ChayYee biatch

This is too funny!!!

He knows how to match with my pose... he acted cool some more.... Kakakakaka~~~ He said he will edit all these picture & make it into a very nice pictures.... His 'remix'!!! I'm waiting~~~~

I'd went to Pyramid with Wei Wei, Ya Ya, Yuan Yin, Jie Shi & San San...

10.40am - Drive out from my house
10.45am - Reached Ya Ya's house to fetch Jie Shi, Yuan Yin & Ya Ya... Go Pyramid loo~~
11.00am - Reached Pyramid. Found parking. Then wait for San San & Wei Wei in Starbucks. I'd bought a cup of Green Tea Frappucino with Caramel top... Slurrpppp~~~
11.10am - Went into Red Box but Wei Wei was late.... Grrrr.... Then we were singing while eating & looking at Wei Wei "retardedness".... Kakakaka... We'd ate cheese baked chicken with rice & I'd drank ice lemon tea... I love Red Box ice lemon tea & Ribena with Nata De Coco but yesterday I didn't see it in the menu =(
2.00pm - Buhbye Red Box... We went shopping... 1st thing that must do is take sticker photos.... Wheeeeee~~~ My favourite... So excited... We were running in & out pair by pair... Hahahaha... Then decorated it then I'd pressed the wrong button which divided the photos only for 2 person... One of my mum's friend called me & disturbed me... Holly Shit! Then we divided the photos & we'd decided to scan it & share with all of us...
4.++pm - After we went Jusco to buy car perfume & my bedsheet, Ya Ya, San San, Wei Wei bought breads... But I felt very uncomfortable so I decided to wait for them... =( Then we left...

A very happy day... Now I'm gonna share our photos... Already shared with my baby... Kakakaka... & told him what did I do for the whole day...

P/S: I'd updated my previous blog which I'd taken sticker photos with Shu Yi... Added another 2 pictures... ^^v

I'm sorry to him...

I just can't understand why am I so stupid?

I keep making him sad & losing confidence...

I remember I said I want him to become the happiest guy in the world... & we should happily together... But look now, what am I doing? I have no idea...

I just hurt him again... I said I wanna break up... I don't know why? Then he was so sad & he just hung up the phone... My heart was like, Omg~~~~ What am I doing now? He asked me to think properly what I want... Is that what I want?

I was lying on the bed... I was thinking why am I saying that? Just in a week time, I'm doing all these... I'd promised myself to stable down & wait for him to come back... But, why? I'm definitely doing the wrong thing...

Then I SMS-ed him that I'm sorry... He has no reply... I know he's mad... Aikss.... I deserve it though... This is what I get after hurting my beloved... =(

After I apologised, he was asking me to think again... What did I just said is what I really want? Actually I'd regretted... He don't know why did I say so? Because I feel very insecure... He's just too far from me... I can't feel his existence... It's just like my previous life... Flirting in MSN then flirting on phone before bed then calling each other dear or darling or what-so-ever... I'm just so afriad that he will be like 'those guys'...

I can't stop crying... I was listening to what he said to me in the phone... He told me how he feels & what he thinks about us... It was pity of him... He thinks more than me... I just can't stop my tears from flowing out...

We'd talked a lot... I'd promised him to stop thinking too much... He wants me to become his good girlfriend... He wants me to trust him, stay by him side all the time... Kekekekeke...

I really miss him... Everyday I keep asking him to come back... I want him... Badly~~~

Today is my bad day!!! 22nd, May 2008....
I hate u 22nd May!!!
Whose birthday is on today I won't wish that person....
Grrrrrrrr....

I'd went pyramid today... Then on the way, I almost bang on a car... That stupid specs guy don't know how to drive izzit? Driving with 4 eyes still cannot drive well... WTF! He was sudden break & I was so near to him... I quickly stepped on the break no matter how hard it is... Grrrrrr~~~~

When I'd reached Monash U to send a clothes to my friend, then I made a U-Turn in front of the U which is not allow... Suddenly 2 police bike came in front of me... OMG! I know I kena shit ady... Then I'd asked to pay him directly... RM10? Don't want... RM20? Errmmmm... Don't want... I begged him... He said ok... Di*... RM2o flew away!!!

Then I'd fetch Shuyi to Pyramid to collect our cap... The shopkeeper wasn't there... So we wait while having lunvh at nearby store... Then when we had finished, he's back... But........ He didn't complete yet! Ok... So??? He asked to wait until 6-7pm... =.= Damn jammed wei~~~ & my mom is gonna call me again & again... Fine~~ I asked him to go SS2 & I'll collect from him...

Then I went for a walk in 'Apee' boutique at Asian Avenue corner... I was choosing cap then I saw nice Tee so I was viewing it... Suddenly I heard a lady voice saying "excuse me!'' WTF..... Her voice was like she'd mentioned for few times but I'm still standing there not to let her go... If I'm not mistaken, she'd just mentioned once! Then I stared at her walking passed & she turned around... Damn! She's so ugly... She has a nice body but ugly face... She was talking about the gurl's outfit to her guy... Eeewwwww~~~ Is he a gay? Or is that gurl stupid? Will a guy interested to listen on you about gurl's outfits??? F***! I feel like slapping her... Then she walked to the hoodies corner where I was already there... She wants to choose the hoodies but I don't care cuz' I wanna choose as well... Who cares? Then she walked away.... Without buying anything but being so 'lan si' in the shop! Get outta of my eyes, B*tch!!!

So, when I reached home... I wanna scanned the sticker photos that I'd taken to my computer... But this computer doesn't have the scanner programme & my mom lost the installer CD... So, I need to scan to my old lappie then use my pendrive to transfer back to my computer... So troublesome... So angry & I was so hot... Then when I was scanning, my lappie keep hanging... Damn it! Stupid lappie... Feel like throwing it onto the wall... Finally, I'd done it... GOOD~~~

The sticker photos that we'd taken in Pyramid: Me & Shuyi

*Uploaded another 2... ^^v

Then my baby was chatting with me online... I have a bad temper... Everyone knows... So I kept throwing my anger on him... He kept asking me to be happy, calm down, chill chill chill~~~~ He was making me more angry cuz' I don't know what to say? Why so soft to me? I'm not a good girl...

Never mind... Then his sister & mother kept asking him who am I when we were on webbie... I have no mood but I was shy & can't help but smiling there... Then he said he needs to leave cuz' his mom wanna use the computer to watch movie or something & he's gonna go out with friends... Then I called him cuz' I wanna buy a hoodie... I was asking him whether should I buy or not? He said buy... Cuz' the price is not really expensive... Ok, fine~

I kept saying things that I'm not suppose to say to my baby... he just kept quiet... He asked me why? Why do I wanna say this? Do you really mean it? & bla bla bla... He don't wanna let me go larr... Kakakaka~~~ Cuz' actually I'm angry because he's not here... I want him to be here, bring me go shopping, choose the things that I want, maybe buy me a small pressie... I wanna lie down beside him, I wanna hug him, I just wanna see him... I told him that if I cannot stand it then he goes find another one & I go find another 1 then we could break up.... He kept quiet then he asked why? He said, "If you really want me to do so then ok larr..." XD

What I was telling him, I doesn't mean it... I was just pissed about today & he's not beside me to held me up... I can hardly feel his existence... I'd sent him a comment in his friendster... He didn't reply me... He said he's lazy to maintain his account... Replying a comment very hard izzit? The keyboard very heavy? Grrrrrrr~~~ I'm very sensitive... YES, I AM!!! That is why it makes me hard to stable down... I don't know~~~ But I love him...

I'm going crazy~~~

This afternoon, I'd frightened him... Not purposely but it's truly from my heart... But what I said to him is what I'm thinking...

I was thinking, he loves me with purpose or pure loving me? What he wants from me? Will he treating me like the way Gary treats me? I don't want these to be happening again... I'm worrying... I feel like breaking up with him... I don't want to get hurt...

He SMS-ed me cuz' I called him earlier on, but he didn't pick up... Then I asked him through SMS asking that is his love pure or with purpose? Will he buy me what I want if one day he get rich?

He replied, he said he got frightened... Why am I asking all these? He said what purpose can he have? What can he want from me? What he wants is my love... He don't want to get hurt either cuz' he got hurt when he was with his ex... Then, he reminded me again not to think so much... He will be back soon...

At that moment, I was like, ok.... I should take it easy though.... Maybe I was thinking too much...Cuz' he has been always telling me that "I'm not rich guy, I can't afford to buy you this & that..." Then I'll be thinking like why are you always telling me so? Cuz' you don't wanna spend money on me? & you expect me to spend on you is it? Omg~~~~~

Then, he called me and asking me to rest more, don't think so much, don't frighten him again, I must trust him & bla bla bla... =) Cuz' I'm not feeling well today...

A disaster had just been stopped... Ahahahaha... I don't know when will I rise up problems again.... Errmmm.. Maybe I should stop!!! Trust him & be his good girl....

I'd stole these photos from somebody... Muahahahah~~~

Pink arrow on his head XD

Our 1st met when we were working in JB... This is his team...

I was playing a quiz in this website http://quizmiz.com/

Actually I was viewing my friend's profile in friendster... Then I saw a very nice quote that sent by his friend(I guess...)... & accidentally I'd clicked into the website... I saw there were many quizes inside so I'd decided to take one quiz... Have fun & I'm curious.... Kekeke....

I saw this quiz "Relationship Compatibility Quiz"... So I clicked in... Then there were 9 or 10 questions to answer... I'd answered all then these results showed out...

You see things in similar ways - Your similarities are a big part of why you're so compatible. And you probably realize that having differences of opinions, of schedules, of hobbies is enriching. You always enjoy doing things together and you guys easily adapt with each other's habits. Great compatibility and this relationship and be long lasting as long as you always communicate correctlty, respect your partner and accept him/her as who she/he is.

On top is the result.... I like the result below that image... But I don't really understand what does the quote in that image means.... It seems like not matching with the result showing... & it doesn't seems like a positive quote.... Isshhhh...........

After that I saw on the top of this webpage there is another things to view... "Quotes" So I'd clicked in... Then I saw these.... Hehehe...

This quote is so amazing...

**Replace the end the words "best friend" to "boyfriend" =P

I'd zoomed in... But seems like it's not really effective... Anyway, this is the wishes for every gurls I guess... Including me, of course~~

Can he be this sweet to me? Hehehehe... By the way, he had done some of it....

What a post???

Sharing thoughts I guess~~~ XD

~The End~

Ahahahaha...
He kept falling asleep today...
Isshhhh...

Today he fall asleep after I'd called him & I'd told him that I'll be calling him again after my lunch... But when I called back, he'd fallen asleep... &.... Yesterday night, when we were SMS-ing, he told he was playing PSP while waiting for my SMS... But after a while, no reply!!! I called him but nobody picks up... He had fallen asleep as well... How do I know? He SMS-ed me after some time....

Now he's the pig... & I'm not!!! He has been calling me pig cuz' I love to sleep and I sleep all the time if I have nothing to do... Beauty sleep... Good for health... Ahahahaha... He said nonsense!!! *Piak*

I told him that this coming Sat I will be clubbing with my friends... Shu Yi plan to go during Sat after her final... Yippie~~~ He lets me go but he wants me to control myself & not to drink so much... For the previous time, I would be drunk & unconcious when I left the club... Then I would be hugging guys & dancing on the dance floor like nobody business... Thinking back now, I feel like I was so crazy... Mad gurl~~~~

I know he will be worrying... Errmmm... Actually I'm worrying that I'll do the same thing again next week... However, I'll try to control myself... Hehehe... I'm a big gurllllllll~~~ When I told him that... I said that I would like to get some cute & rich guys... Muahahaha.... He said if you think you're right then go ahead... But no matter what still, I'm his.... Bla bla bla... He's mine but I'm not his ok?

I always bully him with these things... Said like I wanna dump him, I wanna go clubbing & know guys, I wanna flirt with other guys in MSN... Anyway... He knows I'm just kidding... But, I don't think I wanna do this again... It's not fun after all... & I think he will fed up if I continue this way... Ok... STOP!!!

He's a pig... He's a pig... He's a pig... He's a pig... He's a pig... He's a pig... He's a pig... He's a pig... He's a pig... He's a pig... He's a pig...

But I want this pig very much!!! XD

Now back to our story...

This is the day he went back to his hometown in Miri... His flight at 7pm...

I was thinking to SMS him to say "tata..."
He doesn't like people to say goodbye to him... He said it's like separating forever...
Nonsense~~~!!! But, somehow, I just respect him...

About 9pm, I woke up from nap... Then I SMS-ed him... he said he'd reached, having dinner with friends now...

Then when he was back at home, we chat online... Then webbie as usual..

We talked about Gary... I told him I'd given up on him... Cuz the way he treats me, it hurts a lot... In another way, it means something... But honestly, this is all because of myself... Not because I'd found him so I give up on another person... Definitely not!
Because I know this is very unfair to him... As I myself do not wish that he's treating me this way as well...

We chat about branded bags cuz I was addicted to branded bags... Hahaha... As usual, he will lecture me to save my money, just enough for myself will be good and the list go on....

Oooopssss~ I think if he sees this, he will lecture me again... Hahahaha... Or maybe he will be knocking my head when he's back...

Then both of us changed our display picture to the one that we took that we both went out for the 1st time... He told me he's very happy... Ya... Me too~~~

We love to laugh... He said if he's not always joking around, then there will be some problems... He's humurous... I always do funny face in front of webbie cuz' I'm boring... So bored to just look at him typing the keyboard & staring at the monitor... He loves when I do 'peace' and smile... But I feel so stupid... Then he will smile... He said it's cute.... *pengsan*

So, we stopped around 2am... He said he's tired.... Ya... He was on the flight for 1-2 hours...

Then I slept... With a very sweet heart...

Good morning...

Omgggg... Look at the time now.. It's like 5.30am in the morning... Hell!!! Why am I sitting here? I don't know... I'm hungry... Ahahaha... I have a weird stomach... Always hungry in a different timing... Bacause I'm weird though....

Gonna wake up early in the morning, I mean yea... not this early but like around 9am... Cuz I need to send things to buyers... I sell clothes & bags... Kekeke...

Actually I slept at around 12am... Then somebody called me... Guess who? Alorence... Ermmm... I don't know whether suppose am I to call him this way or call him as usual way??? Anyway, I'm shy to call him the way I call him usually... So keep it til I'm ready to tell... XD

I heard birds singing... I heard mosque 'singing'... But the sky is still dark... I wonder if I can have something to do now like go 'yamcha', or go my friend's house... Ya...... I'm sophisticated sometimes.... Whenever I have no class the next day, I tend to sleep late... Cuz I know I have plenty of time to sleep in the next day... Somebody told me I'd got used to it... Hahaha.... "Somebody"???

I went Pyramid yesterday... I was with Shuyi & her friend, Matthew I guess... Her Malacca friend... Then suddenly 1 couple pop-out... I don't know who are they but the Indian guy gave me a feeling that he looks like "Jacky"... A guy who were going after me last time...

I'd bought a cap, and a Stussy T-shirt.... But the cap is available for collection by tomorrow I mean today(Saturday) at 7pm... The very jam hour so I'd decided to take it another time... Shuyi said next Thurs after her final we shall go together... Alright~~~But I miss the cap... I'm so excited to collect it....=(

Today no SMS-ing, no phone calling but MSN...
We were talking abt my 2nd hand clothes selling forum & my wardrobe...
he lectured me about how I waste my money.... Ahahaha...
he's a very mature thinking guy... Everything he does, he will think wisely...
Then he said he wants to sell things online as well...
Then we were discussing abt our day out...
He said I'm pig... Cuz I said I'll only wake up in the afternoon if I have nothing to do that day...
Then he said he is a pig either cuz he can sleep for the whole day...
2 pigs talking...
Final conclusion: I should go out at 10.30am & reach there before 12pm then have lunch together then go The Curve, Ikano...
So we slept at 2am++

I called him 1st... I mean I'm the one to call him instead of SMS or chat online...

But we weren't talking for long... The 1st time I called him it's because I wanted to ask him about my pc... My computer went wrong... My desktop blank out... I don't know what's wrong... So I'd asked him how to solve this problem but he said no idea... Alamak...

However, my pc was recovered by itself... I don't know why either but I was shocked when I on my pc & looking at my desktop with those icons...

That was the time he was still in Miri... He went back before CNY & came back in Mac/Apr... The he went back again on 6th of May... When is he coming back? I have no idea... He himself is not confirm either... So... I'll be just waiting.......................

On 9th of May, I SMS-ed him that I'd cut my hair... Then he said he will text me again when he reach home cuz he's outside having dinner with friends... When he reached home, he was waiting for his dad to pass him the pc so that he can online... But his dad was working for things until very late... So, we sms each other... I'd sent him my photos with my new hairstyle... Ahahahaha.... He requested for it... Then I'd called him cuz I didn't receive any reply... This happened to be the longest phone call that we ever had... Around 5 hours? Wowwww~~~~

That was the beginning that make us more closer... After that we sms, call, & chatting in MSN everynight... Until the middle of the night... The next day I'll be so unconcious to college...

I wonder how long can we last for? How long can we be? How long??? The more sweeter I feel, the more worrier I am... I'm worrying that this is just a short moment... A very short happiness...

The 1st time he texted me was like New Year eve? When he actually asking me whether going Maison or not? In the end, I didn't go... *Sigh* I regretted...

Then the 2nd time I think it was the next day after New Year Countdown... Then CNY, then randomly once or twice... But, most of the time we were just like a random person in each other life... Especially when he went back to Miri... We were like lose contact...

Now, we text each other when we open our eyes, when we are eating, walking, before doing something...

There was few times I woke up from my sweet dreams, I saw his sms... I feel so sweet... Maybe when he's the one that u wish he could do so, it will make u feel sweet... From the bottom of my heart...

Whenever I see his sms I'll be smiling... It's not the 'In Love Mode' but the words he's using is really cute & funny... It's like he's talking to me... Silently~

Previously I was using Maixs no. but now I'd changed my Maxis no. to another mobile phone & Digi prepaid to this K810i... A better mobile phone... Hahaha... & I'd added him, Shu Yi, & my mummy into Friends & Family....

However, I still wish I could see him doing things in front of me... & we talk face-to-face....

I hope u can be back soon...

Alright...

MSN is our tool to communicate most of the time... And a webbie... At first we were just chatting about random things... Maybe flirting as well... I mean like talking abt stupid things like pinch nipples, sleep together & bla bla bla... Ahahaha... Sophisticated? Ya... a lil bit... But I'm the kind of the gurl that don't mind about talking anything... As long as it doesn't humiliate my personality...

When we had just knew each other, we seldom chat in MSN... Sometimes he talked to me 1st, sometimes I 'kacau' him 1st... =P I remember when he went back to Miri, his hometown, we do chat sometimes... But after a while, he seems to disappear... He's very busy with his friends gathering, family members & so on... So, we kinda lose contact... But after he came back to KL, I seems to like used to his disappearance...

Until one day(I'd forgotten which day... Please forgive for my shorten memory..), we chat again... That was before his exams... He told me he needs to re-sit for his Quantity Survey papers as he failed... Sigh~~~ There was once, really funny... I asked him, "What if I fall in love with you one day?" He was like huh??? Why? Did I do anything to make u misunderstanding??? I answered him, nope... I was just asking for fun... Hahaha... Then he told me many things... Like now is not a condition... Because he's having exam, he's still wondering about his next step, he still misses his ex & so on... =S Obviously........ These are lame excuses....

Things go on til now, MSN still an important communication tool for us... The only way can see each other, the only place to let us share our photos & songs, & stuffs... But it's not enough when he's in Miri & I'm in KL... So far... I couldn't hold his hands, couldn't pinch his face =(

These are some photos he sent me(If he sees it, I think I'll be in the heaven!)

This is him in Sarawak Lambir Hills National Park having his hi-tea after a one-day trip.

A very selamba pose but he looks cute!

Oh ya...
Almost left out this part...
Ever guessing did I celebrate new year with him?
The answer is NOPE...
I was with another friend...
An ex-crush...
Alorence sms-ed me asking whether am I going Maison as Raymond all are actually planning to go clubbing & countdown 2008 new year... Unfortunately I went out with another friend... It's really boring... I was thinking I should meet Alorence during the New Year...
So surprisingly when he actually sms-ed me in the afternoon asking where am I celebrating the New Year Eve... I'd been keeping it for quite sometimes...
I still remember there was once he sms-ed me that he likes me but he doesn't love me so he can't do anything... Until today, honestly, I don't understand that... Maybe it's meaningless or maybe he actually meant something...
Finally, he wished me HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
That's all~

Now...

The 2nd time we worked together was during the Super Home Ideas Show 2008...

In MidValley Exhibition Hall from 24th-27th Jan 2008...

I didn't manage to take any photos with him...

But this time we seems to talk more & always stand together...

My 'darling mummy' said Raymond's sis thought we are couple...

Ermm.... To be more accurate is she thought Alorence is going after me...

Hahahaha... I was like no.... We are friends... Cuz he's very nice...

Then I played on his hp... Finding songs & playing the camera...

We didn't really said goodbye or what...

& it ends...

A new journey...
I'm happy with this new journey...
I'd chosen a new pathway...
The story starts here...
Let's start now~

14th Dec 2007, I went JB for Maxis Broadband job... It's from 14th-16th Dec... I went with my colleagues: Adrian, Cheen Lin, Raymond(my boss), Yuvis and so on...

So, what happens next?

I started to work, & I know people from another team... Basically we have 2 teams here... 1 is Raymond and another 1 is lead by 'Ah Lai'...

Ok... Then I talked to this guy(he said I talked to him 1st)... Then we were joking around with very ridiculous things... Ahahaha...

He has a unique name, Alorence... But I tend to forgetting the name...

We'd never realised that this could lead us til now...

Basically, I thought we will just forget about each other after PC fair...

He took my HP no. & MSN... Although he'd taken my contact no., but I'd never thought we will be so close...

He is the one at the left of 2 balloons...Squating down...